Do I Love You?

Do I love you?

Of course I do. I’m surprised you haven’t realized that already. Have you seen the way I look at you? You could ask anyone I’ve talked to about us, even they know I love you, and I’ve never said it.

I want to spend all of my time with you. I run to you when I’m upset because you have been the only constant in my life lately. Sometimes life gets a little too real for me to handle. I fall apart when things go wrong because I’m losing what’s important to me. You’re the only thing that is clear: I want you. I don’t want to be with anyone else, and I can’t even imagine myself with anyone else. I’ve known you forever. If this is really the end, I think I’m ruined.

These past couple days without you have been the loneliest I’ve ever had. I have never felt more alone than I do right now, and that’s why I needed you. When I’m spiraling, you’re the only one who can bring me back to reality.

Why haven’t I told you that I love you?

There have been so many moments where I’ve wanted to, but I didn’t know how you would respond. I would be crushed if you didn’t feel the same, so I avoid the situation. You can’t tell me you don’t know that I’m crazy about you.

I’m constantly talking about you. There’s never a second where I’m not thinking about you, and it’s not fair. I know you’re fine without me; you don’t need me. You’re not hurting. You try to tell me that I’m fine, but when I say I’m not okay, I’m being honest. I’m not exaggerating. You underestimate my attachment to you.

You are the best thing to happen to me in such a long time, and I will keep saying that. I’ve never been more comfortable with someone. You accept me as I am, flaws and all. I don’t feel like I have to put on a facade to please you.

You have no idea how amazing you are, and that makes it even better. When I’m with you, I’m genuinely happy. Life is so much brighter when I’m around you, and I can’t let that go. We just click, and that’s new to me. You make me laugh all the time, and you’ll say random things like, “I knew we were supposed to become something.” That stuck in my head. We were just sitting when you said it. You may not have realized how important that was to me; no one has ever said anything like that.

You give me butterflies all over my body just by looking at me, how you hold me, how you kiss me. As soon as I see you, I start to smile. I’m not usually affectionate, but with you I can’t help it. I want to give you anything and everything I have to offer.

You’ve brought out a new side of myself I’ve never known. I’m not afraid to show you or anyone else how much you mean to me.

Tell me, do you think I love you?

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